Sincerity....

Sincerity....most people possess the capacity to be sincere. Whether it's in a way that might not be the way we want i.e. telling the truth, being honest, telling it like it is.....or the other way that makes us warm and fuzzy.....the more positive approach......I prefer someone who is SINCERE at whatever degree the situation calls for.

I have found that there are people who I "thought" were my friends who, when my back was turned, talked about me behind my back and I found out about it. It's not that what they were sharing was a huge, top-secret thing, but the mere fact that it was between "us" and it was shared. No less with a mutual friend.

Why I ask? Why share something so personal is a mystery to me. I don't do that in spite of the fact people think I do blab all over the place. I don't. I do give my opinon, warranted or not. But I do possess a little bit of tact so I don't just say whatever is on my mind without filtering it.....as I've seen others fail to do.

I'm not cruel or mean.....what I say "may" hurt your feelings but it's the truth (with the needed filtering because I am kind), but I don't expect people to hold back on me either. If you've got something to say, say it. If I can dish it out, I'd better be able to take it.

My list of trustworthy people dwindles almost every day. I'm so disappointed in people who say they are my friend, through thick and thin, and then I find out they've blabbed our business all over the place. Pisses me off....and then they just fall to the bottom of the list or just off the list altogether. It's really not hard to do....just be honest.

It does make me sad. I don't have high expectations of my friends. I accept them for who they are. But don't lie to me....and don't talk about me behind my back. Period. It's easy.

I have to figure out how to deal with this latest disappointment......what should I do?