My husband has cheated on me for the umpteenth time. I found out by accident, nonetheless as devastating as finding out any way. I'm lost, confused and so deeply disappointed. Where do I go, what happens now? I promised myself I'd walk away if I ever caught him cheating again.
Yet I am so shocked by what he's done, I am frozen in place. I can't make heads nor tails of why he'd risk everything he claims to hold dear to fulfill this secretive need? I just can't understand it.
I'm not perfect but nor am I unattractive. I've asked over and over what's wrong with me, only to get the same answer. Nothing. Then why? I'm faithful in spite of feeling neglected a lot of the time. I'm stressed. I worry and I want to feel good about myself. But I do not venture out of my vows to find and receive what's missing.
My ship is drifting and I have no idea where I am headed.
