Here we are again....

I am just heartbroken. Katie attacked Dack last night, and wouldn't let go. Dack was so scared and freaked out, and I know he was in pain. (no blood thankfully)

We had to separate the dogs all night, which meant no one got any sleep. Today is Walt's first day at work, and this is the LAST thing he needs to deal with. We decided that if Katie went after Dack again, that was it....the decision was made. And she did.

My heart hurts, and I know I am going to miss her. We have done everything we can to help re-train this dog to be loving and not aggressive. We have loved her and brought her with us to Las Vegas in hopes that what happened before would never happen again. And it did. And it hurts like hell. I don't like the idea of having to take this dog, who I have loved, to the pound and never knowing what happens to her. We don't have a choice. We can't advertise and we can't find a home. It's not like they can all live together until that day comes. She's aggressive and mean now.

I don't understand why I've had to let go of so many things lately.....and I feel sort of picked on. I feel as though I've rolled with all the punches that have come my way.....and accepted that this is God's path and plan for me. But right now, I don't feel as though this is the way it was meant to be. I'm sick.

Yet, I have to accept this, and love my boys with all my heart. It's just them now. We've dwindled down the number of pets from who knows how many to 3. I love Walt so much that he is willing to do the hard stuff this time. I just can't. I just wish it had happened on a day when he wasn't starting a brand new job.

I can't stop crying, and this affects everyone around me. But I can't handle the sound of dogs fighting and the sight of one of them hurting the other. It breaks my heart.

Today's Prayer:
Dear Lord please forgive us for not being able to handle Katie's aggressiveness. Please help the shelter find her a home where she can get all the love she wants and she doesn't have to fight for attention. Please follow her and let her know that I did love her so much and wanted her to always be with our family. Please watch over Sarah and Holly, and please keep watch over our friends and family. Thank you for everything we have been blessed with, and for all that is to come. Please put a smile in the hearts of the people I interviewed with and let them see how special I am.
In Your Loving and Giving Name.....Amen.