Closure

I drove to the shelter where Katie is. I asked if she was still there. They brought her out, and she didn't seem all that excited but acted as though she knew me. They wanted $35 for me to take her home. $35 we didn't have at the time. I stood there and cried. They wouldn't release her to me without the fee.

So I left. Called Walt and talked to him. He, of course, thinks I'm completely out of my mind....but understands why I miss this dog. I call the shelter and speak to someone. She says that Katie will be there until she's adopted. They do not kill the animals there. The chances of her being adopted are very good. She's young, active, and beautiful. So that's when I made the final decision. She deserves a different home where she can be the only princess and doesn't have to feel bossy and aggressive around other dogs.

I am letting go. Finally....I think. I have to. It IS the best thing for this family, and ultimately, for her. She seemed happy.....and cared for. That's all I could ever ask. She'll make someone a wonderful friend and they'll appreciate her wacky sense of humor, barking at nothing and doorbells on the tv, and her need to be the only one.

I'm still so sad, but happy that she'll not be put to sleep. It's the closure I needed to SEE and FEEL.

Thank you Lord for this blessing of peace and knowing that Katie will be cared for and loved; thank you for all the blessings we have and will be coming our way; please help prospective employers to see that I am THE ONE for the job and it's meant to be; watch over my girls, our friends, and our furry friends here; thank you for Walt's job and his happiness....in your Loving and Giving Name....Amen.

Things that have made me smile so far today: the SUNSHINE (I'm so predictable); Carmel iced lattes; puppy happiness in the morning; pretty hair; a job interview; wonderful and supportive friends.....